Heartache

Oh how my heart doth ache!
I am impassioned with all
that overwhelms my soul!

My soul acheth with burden
My heart weeps
with the loss I must endure

My spirit seems not sure
and does not know what to do
All it can do is cry out

My mind is overwhelmed
with turmoil and pressing thoughts
How I urge rest to come!

How can I ignore the Arrows?
Oh they pierce my heart
They tear through my soul

But how can I neglect the Romance?
My Lover calls in the midst of my pain
My spirit seeks to tend to Him who calls

I ache beneath the weight I carry
My back begins to break
I wonder how I came to carry it all

Though He urges me to give it all up
Not to carry it, but give it to Him
I find I am afraid and don't know how

Though He whispers in my ear
and kisses my heart and my lips
I deny Him, afraid and half ashamed

He calls me in all I do
yet I feel consumed by what is here
Another love has left me broken and alone

My love! Return to me!
Or give me promise of return!
My heart knows not how to cope...

But my Lover tells me peace
My Lover says He comes above all
This Lover says He is my first

My heart aches for what I can touch
for one I can see
Though I must learn He is enough for me

How can one cope?
How dare I toil?
It will only make my heart bitter

I wish I could hope
and I find I hope too much
Do I waste my time? Do I burden myself?

All these answers I wish I knew
And my first Lover I still wish to know
Oh lover, I miss you, still my heart is true...


copyright Michele Aimee Lahaie 2009